Rescue Beauty Lounge: Emoting Me Collection & A Story
Today, I have something that is very special to me. Now, I don’t normally get all mushy or too personal on the blog because people don’t come to my blog for that. But in this case, I feel it’s necessary for me to bare my soul. It’s taken a lot of courage for me to decide to share this, so be gentle with me. If you don’t want to read a big gooey, gloppy emotional story… just scroll to the bottom of the post for the swatches but I’m hoping this may help some of you, the way it has helped me…
You all know by now that I’m obsessed with polish. It’s taken my life in a direction I had never expected. Of course, like many of you, I get all excited for new collections and big reveals and all the pretty, sparkly things that come of it. When Rescue Beauty Lounge finally revealed the Emoting Me Collection, I was excited as usual. I meandered over to Ji’s Blog first to get all the details. When I arrived at the post, I expected to get that little high I get. That little faux heart palpitation I usually feel in my chest. But as I started reading, my eyes brimmed with tears. It took everything in me to not burst out into uncontrollable hysterics but along came that dreaded knot in my throat and I knew I needed an emotional release. I lost it. The tears were flowing. There was no stopping it. If you haven’t read the post, you are probably wondering, “what the heck it this chick yammering on about???” But this was no normal description for a collection. At least to me. Here is what it said:
” ‘May my goods come out greater than my own, every time I walk towards your path. Please usher my footfalls, guide me to be where to be, what to do, what to say, what to write, and to whom. Let me embrace every moment you’ve given to me with clear vision, strength, peace, love and grace. Let me be with you every moment to moment in your magical kingdom. Let me be at your service, my heart is open to you and use me for something greater than my own. Thank you for your abundance, blessings, and your love. Thank you for this beautiful gift of today.’
This is my daily mantra and how I greet each day. I subconsciously and consciously recite it from that exquisite place sandwiched between my sleepy-dreamy blur and the lustering lights of a brand new morning. It took me many years of seeking, practicing, and learning to reach this point in my life. I feel stripped naked, revealing and sharing my private daily mantra, but this is my story and also the story that is within all of us: we are all emoting.
I’m convinced that if one is ready to truly learn, this generous universe paves the road in front of us. The trick is knowing when to admit the desire to take that first baby step.
Sadly for me, my desire to take this first step came five years ago, when my beloved mother-in-law suddenly left this earth. Our sunny, delightful home came under a dark gray rolling fog that thickened with our gloom. Lingering questions struck me during this time: Can emotional darkness be contagious? Are we enjoying this sorrowful place just a tad too much? It was time for me to open my own eyes and to start my first step toward my own path and to seek my true self. I became an observer of my own life.
I read self-help books and came across many sparklingly wise words and phrases that we’re told should accompany our daily lives. But by painfully peeling the layers off of my own ego, I learned that I’m responsible for my own emotions and the energy I give out.
My everyday practice is simple: I’ve stopped labeling myself. I’m not so evolved that I levitate in the lotus position in the snowy mountains wearing my flowing pair of tai chi pants. I process and feel every emotion, just like everyone on this earth, but I keep my daily ego in check by knowing that I’m responsible for what I give out and what I receive.
No matter what the circumstances, these are the seven words I repeat persistently…” (Verbatim. SOURCE)
I am not a religious person but I feel this could be perceived in different ways depending on your beliefs. I had my own interpretation of the post. These words could not have graced my mind at a more perfect moment in time. I have been struggling with depression for months (and possibly years) and at risk of sounding clichè, I felt so hopeless. I had been feeling like my body, my mind, my soul, my heart were in shambles. All disconnected from one another. Each part filled with holes that seemed irreparable. I didn’t know how or if I would be able to dig myself out of this black pit I was in. In front of almost everyone, I could put on my mask and my shell would parade around as if everything was just fine. It wasn’t.
While reading these words, something clicked in me and I cried for the first time in who knows how long. Every emotion and feeling I’d been pushing down for MONTHS came bubbling out all over the place. I cried for almost 4 days straight. I don’t know why it was this post that caused my overflow to happen. My mom had been trying to help me and guide me for so long! But for whatever reason, it was at that moment that I realized, I can do this. I don’t want to feel this way anymore and I won’t. I refuse to continue on like this. My eyes opened to all the things I felt were wrong in my life and every person or situation I was blaming for them. What did they all have in common? Me.
So after my 4 days of crying and rummaging through my emotional landfill, I decided it was time to take control. Mind you, I knew it was not going to be easy, but as Ji said I knew I had to “admit the desire to take that first baby step.” And so I did. By no means am I “healed.” By no means is this a “miracle.” It’s hard work and a constant conscious effort for me to change my way of thinking. I also started taking medication to help with the depression and it’s helped me to take those baby steps toward happiness and contentment. I already feel better. I’m feeling closer to myself now. I no longer feel helpless. I still have a long way to go but the light is shining brighter day by day.
I had emailed Ji to let her know how much her post and collection meant to me. That these colors were no longer just beautiful bottles of paint, they were my reawakening. And I wanted to say it here too. And again, thank you Ji.
I’m going to include her descriptions of each color as well, as they hit me equally as hard as the initial part of the post did. So, finally, here they are…
“Become One” is a smooth grass green crème. It’s a dream to apply! So perfect. 2 coats!
“I imagine that one brilliantly sunny day in April when I looked up to see the sun flickering through a cascade of innocent leaves. This opaque green takes me to those young; verdant leaves in the spring and reminds me that nature is our best teacher of life cycles.”
“Be Humble” is a taupe shade with purple undertones and of course RBL’s signature hidden microshimmer in blue and purple. It really leaned on the purple side against my skin tone! 3 coats.
“I know that I can’t be too self-congratulatory or judge others. I always remind myself to stay modest. I try to grey out my ego with this taupe lightness and allow hope to float in pink, blue, and lavender shimmers.”
“Forgiveness” is muted purple crème. Amazing formula, just like you’d expect from a Rescue Beauty Lounge polish. Effortless and perfect in 2 coats.
“To forgive and to ask for forgiveness is the ultimate emotional cleanser, but why is it so difficult for me to open my heart and admit that I’m wrong? Guilt and regret are useless emotions. When I forgive someone, or even when I forgive myself, I step into the serene opaqueness of this dove-lavender color and then I am able to let go and move on.” (This one resonated with me profusely.)
“Pause” is a semi-metallic purple with slight reddish shimmer that isn’t in-your-face but isn’t hidden either. AMAZING. One of my fave polishes is Butter London “HRH” and this really reminds me of it but with a major twist! The shimmer really sets it apart. 2 coats.
“Violet is the color of the chakra that marks the union of the soul with the body, mind, and divine consciousness. With this come bliss, satisfaction, and rest. Being in the present moment is probably the hardest challenge I have. When I stare at the depth of this multi-faceted mid-violet silky shimmer and be at one with this color and nothing else, then I know I am in my present moment.”
“Smile” is muted red crème with that hidden golden shimmer. It looks red in the bottle but on me it has coral undertones. The happiest red I have ever seen! 2 coats.
“First, I always smile at the sky at least once a day. It is a privilege to be in this universe. When I lift my face to the sun and bask in its gloriousness, I blink my eyes and see this dazzling red light, a neutral red, and full of sunny, shimmery goodness. Like a smile, this color is contagious.”
“Thank You” has a nude/off-white base with glowing opalescent microshimmer. 3 coats… 4 coats may be necessary or use lighter strokes. And if you have ridges like me, use a good ridge-filling base coat!
“Because I’m my own worst critic, I first thank myself, then I thank others, and lastly, I thank the universe. I know that I am loved and, even in negative circumstances, in order to grow, lessons must be learned. It may be tough in the beginning, but when I close my eyesin gratitude and start with a bare, neutral nude, a cast of beatific opalescent pink shimmers radiates with thankfulness.”
“Turn It Around” is an olive green with VIVID pink and copper shimmer. This is like Halcyon’s darker, flashier sister! Seriously incredible! If you only get one from the collection (which would be ill-advised) get this baby! 3 coats.
“Once I understood the universe’s law of polarity, everything made perfect sense. Negatives can’t exist without positives. If I never allow pain to wash over me, then joy becomes meaningless. From this color’s dark mossy green pond, a vivid, glittering cast of copper shimmer welcomes me back to joy.”
I’m going to leave you guys with just a little plug… if you feel that you may be suffering from depression, please see a doctor, counselor, etc. It may feel like you won’t ever be how you were again, but it’s possible. I hope my ramblings may be able to help someone out there… even if it’s just one person. ♥
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